just read bird's blog.
and i find it so so true.
one year's almost past, and what have i gained from it,
or rather, what have YOU gained from it oh Lord?
have i wasted one yr of my life?
sighs.
ya its like beginning of the yr, i was so not afraid, so on fire n everything, n i would wake early n go to grand stand n do my qt almost every morning. but now? im just contented tt i reach school on time. n getting scared of sharing with my friends this wonderful news and love tt i have.
but what Uncle DAn foo said yest was so right.
conviction has to come with the heart.
not only the mind. and when u are really convicted,
it would overflow
i still remb the vision tt some speaker had for me, that there was a spring, and it had a rock over it and it could not flow.
then suddenly, it was removed and the spring began to flow and flow and flow.
when is that rock going to be removed?
indeed praise God who knows the frailty of man.
he gave us His promises, and He is faithful and just!
whenever u've sinned, say sorry,
ask Him to cleanse u, n you would be back right up again.
the blood of Christ covers all sins
and in HIm we have victory,
and we can live our lives victoriously.
no fear. no scared.
and no failings.
because in all my failings, i am made perfect and whole by YOU.
i will tell the world of Your goodness.
i will tel the world of Your love.
convict me.
my heart and my mind.
let the world see Jesus Christ in me.


im sad im not going missions this yr. they're really going so deep into the village! and its so exciting with all the boatrides and everything. BUT. i believe God has a greater purpose for me right here back in Singapore. and i shall pray faithfully for them everyday they're away.
Kindy concert was ok yest.
great thanks to Sam Goh who so last min helped me! Gabriel, Benjamin, Marcus and Amos!
at least i enjoyed myself and i know,
you smiled, oh yes you smiled.
(((((:
isn't that what life is all about?
just to see a smile upon Your lovely face.


let everything i do be a Hallelujah to you.
my Lord. King. Saviour. Friend.

9:10 AM

i wrestled with the sinner's heart.
undone.
teardrops are falling,
blood in your hands,
what am i to do?



if only you knew,
if only you could see my thoughts,
oh dear, if only.
im glad only Jesus can.
how i did wrestle with my heart.
i don't want to face the ugly truth.
i don't want to let go.
but if i don't, it's goin to be so terrible.
and my mind would just go bonkers.
so i shall let go.
i shall let YOu handle it.
i shall break my heart and let it be made new by Your love.
Yours alone.


capture my thoughts,
my inmost being. let me run to my lover's house.
to be with you and dwell in ur hse
all the days of my life.
i'll try to love you.
i'll try to let go.
i will.


oh Holy Spirit, You're my comfort.
Lord my heart is set on YOu
let me run the race of time
with Your life unfolding mine,
and let the peace of God,
let it reign.
Oh Lord i hunger
for more of You
rise up within me
let me know Your truth
oh Holy Spirit
saturate my soul and let the life of God
heal me now
let Your healing power
bring life and make me whole
and let the peace of GOd,
let it reign.
-peace of God by Darlene


friends come and go,
but thank you LORD JESUS for never going away.

8:37 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

took this from char's blog which i found, O, so true.
if I die to this love of love,
with all its romance and passion,
I can really focus on Christ.


love is like chocolate - it gives you a sugar buzz each time you see that person, but you know chocolate will never fill your stomach. In fact, the more you feed on love, the more you hunger for it, in much the same way we yearn for chocolate because we've tasted its sugar rush. In moving away from eating junk food, I learnt one principle: The more you deny it, and feed yourself with healthier food, the less you will hunger for junk food, and desire healthier food, becaue you've tasted its wholesome goodness. Eventually, you only want healthy food. Then, it's no longer a sacrifice not to eat junk food, but you DESIRE not to eat junk food. It's a strange phenomenon, but very true. The more you feed your deisre, the more it grows. The less you feed it, the more it starves and eventually dies. Is it wrong to have romantic feelings for someone? NO! but it is wrong when he takes the place of an idol in your heart.
Thus we face the daily struggle of choosing wholesome nutritious food over artificial, momentary hunger-filling food. Do we create romantic fantasies in the air, dreaming up our love story or do we feed ourselves with the real thing? Mr Bennett, in Pride and Prejudice said,"Still, a girl likes to be crossed in love now and then." That is so very true! And yet we see how powerful the love of love is, to the extent that it doesn't make sense. For the love of love, we girls would feed our emotions, torturing ourselves, as it were, with ideas and thoughts that can never fully satisfy. We can pursue the greatest love story with our King.

thats alot to swallow.
but true, to a capital T.

9:01 AM

im in the office.
my laptop is spoiled again.
i shant stress how scared i am of computors, they just have this thing against me and i will now always have a phobia of computors either crashing on me or having some virus eat up evrything. and my acne is really getting worse!


ok i shouldn be complaining. im sorry god for being this whiny spoilt brat. i pray tt u would still love me and oh,
i dont know the plans you have for me,
but please reveal them to me,
or make them hurry up without messing anything up.
okok i know i have to wait for ur timing too.
think we re now living in a fast-paced, " I-WANT-IT-NOW " world and oh how much i need to wait upon you.
i just cant get down to doin the things i need to do.


grip my heart.


i really do pray ill do my best for u this coming sat. in the kindy concert. first time leading? with my dad as backup singer. so weird.
and jon! if ure reading this! im worried for you! hope ure just busy bout the rgs thing n nth else! praying for u constantly tt god will protect ur heart n mind n soul from all sorts of attacks! he will
and joel koh. i only know he is busy with essays and school. what a gap tt has widened the gap btw us.
shakes head. my english is getting worse. so is my chinese.
i wrote a letter to my china freind in yanling n i dint know how to write so many words, and all the phrasing were wrong. i miss them so! and was reading all the letters they wrote to me. felt extremely guilty for not caling and writing to them. i need to buy the card for overseas call. any idea how much it costs? im broke this mth);


CHARLENE LIE SUZHEN.
UR BIRTHDAY IS THIS FRIDAY AND YOU MUST GO OUT WITH ME AND NO ONE ELSE. HUH. i miss you! so so much! oh you pooh face, pinchy pixie, partner in spas crime, fairy god mama, fellow co-worker in laopobing and laohong co and so so much more. ROARS.


teach me to pray.
help me to pray.
teach me to study.
help me to study.
teach me to love.
help me to love.
show me your way,
show me your way.
in my life Your will be done

8:42 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

why?

9:18 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

here and now
here in this moment
here and now
i turn to you
all that my searching heart has longed for can be found
cause youre in this moment here and now
what majesty
what mystery
the god of all eternity stepped into time
and gave his life for me
your hand is seen in galaxies
yet your spirit dwells in me
so vast and yet youre still within our reach
there is no way you cant be found
here and now
here in this moment.


make me cry.

4:09 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

if my heart has grown cold,
there your love will unfold
as you open my eyes to the work of your hands
oceans will part,
nations come
at the whisper of your call
hope will rise,
glory shown
in my life your will be done
for unto us
a Saviour came
amazing grace that takes the weight
his name is hope for all the earth
his name now and beyond this life
god with us
and you shall be called Amighty God
and we shall declare
your name is higher


how awesome it is to fall before the kings of kings
to worship and adore him
to cry before him
tears of anguish, tears of joy, tears of compassion



oh how i pray that you would grant me boldness to tell of your goodness
that when it starts coming, it would not stop, never stop.
indeed i will tell of your goodness all the days of my life,
and sing praise every waking hour!



emotional turmoil.
infatuate: inspire with intense fondness
haha. came across it in the Oxford Dictionary.
such an unfamiliar word that brings back memories of old..
i wonder what it means by 'inspire'?
what a world we live in.
so many distractions and o,
how easy it is to fall away from the first love.
never let go of my heart,
keep it with you, close to you.


and i will stop watchin animae..about demons and stuff, and i would read the bible then and yes. i really hope hehes would start to realise the importance of the word. thank god eldr dan foo spoke on tt..it was what i wanted to go thru during cell! praise god for affirming it.
gettin back results tmr.


so take me as you find me
all my fears and failures
fill my life again
i give my life to follow
everything i believe in
now i surrender



i lift all my fears of the future, of my results into your hands.
i dont know what the future holds for me
but im gonna trust in you.
i keep seeing myself crying or running away when i get my results;
o never let that be.



come close to me,
too close for words
and still my beating heart


im so thankful

8:46 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

at breaking point
i dont know what to do
i really dont
do i fall for grace or walk away?
sorry wont help now, i know
but i gave all i could
oh did i or did i not?
my world spins
and i know not where my being is
three more, and then two
and its over
is it really over
or just a sham; deception
over
and then i would hit delirious
what can i say
what can i do


so depressing. tt was during maths paper.
oh lord god, youve been so so faithful to me.
you really never let go of me no matter how dark it is.
you ve been constantly reminding me:
i am the righteousness of god
i am highly favoured
i can die to sin
i can trust in him
what simple truths these are, yet, the devil always deceives. and what a wretch i am to have continually played into his hands and let him lead me to deception! eldr viming's msg yest was really good. den sin, has already been put to death! and we are no longer slaves to sin; we dont need to feel obliged!!


sighs. so bye to all depressing thoughts! indeed, YOUR DEATH HAS BROUGHT US LIFE! and i will trust you, even tho my future seems really really bleak now.


under my skin
this warmth that courses through my soul
feel your kiss on my heart
as i place it in your hands


i need to stop doubting. consume my mind and let me love you with all my mind.
indescribable.
intangible.
incomprehendable.
hahas is there such a word? but ya. the idea is there.
You're so much higher than me;us.


believing the unseen
trusting the unknown
knowing that You're there
Your Omnipresence
frailty of a mind
to ever doubt Your plans
what more could i ask
but for your extended hand of grace and mercy?


anyway!!!! i feel so excited for the mission team!! im quite sad i can't go but i feel sooooo excited for them! small grp of only 8 ppl but it's gonna be sweet fellowship and really close communion. aah. n i know real friendships will be forged then..nvm i pray tt God you would let me guide them according to Your will and let me, too, share in the sweet fellowship. ((:
im using orange cos its so exciting!!! n to liven things up.
n im glad to be back serving in the body. feels like ve been away for ages..oh YC musical please hasten n come!! im so excited!


Jesus, i revel in your love

6:11 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

shout it out (:

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all the brothers and sisters

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of old.

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credits.

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wonderful people

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